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Slow Start

September 7th, 2011

I ran down to get a beverage this morning and had a quick conversation with the beverage lady.  After exchanging pleasantries I mentioned that I have been off to a slow start today ( as you can tell my the tardiness of this post), her response was “well at least its a start!”

I guess that’s correct, at least it’s a start – but I am not so sure.  In my line of work there is a concept called recursive programming, and I love it.  It’s essentially having something call itself to continue doing the same thing multiple times.  It’s a pretty cyclical thing, and can be very very confusing and perplexing if not used correctly.  For those of you who don’t understand this concept, think Groundhog Day.

Well, that’s sort of how I feel this morning, like I am in a recursive loop.  Same issues, same problems, same struggles, same same same.  Argh.

Even this morning my good friend Wade and I were talking about generators and my recent reoccuring power outages.  When I said I still needed to get one of those generators, his reply was

 you said that 4 months ago

As a matter of fact, if you notice that link, that last time I spoke about Wade, was the week after Labor Day, last year.  ARGH, I feel like I am deep inside a recursive loop and it is really really getting me down.
Do you ever feel that way, like you can’t get out? It’s been a personally frustrating morning as I see these glimpses of sameness plastered all around me, when my spirit craves for newness, and for re-creation.

So today, here is a verse that I have been spending some time considering today.

12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. Psalm 51:12 New International Version (NIV)

I think that focusing on the joy that only come from one place should maybe help with some of this cyclical madness – What do you think?